still waiting for a change.
i need a change.
a dramatic one.
but it's not that kind of pill.
i think i'm gonna take a shower.
my armpits smell weird.
(there's always a vague hope i'll fall in the tub and break my neck)
i'm scared that i might fall in the tub and break my neck and my door will be locked and no-one will be able to come in and save me or collect my dead body until it starts to smell.
my door is a security door.
but two people have keys.
i have to be serious and careful and responsible about this.
lock the door but don't leave the key on.